interdependent

i must be one of the most unfaithful at updating my blog. but then, i think ive an innate gift for giving up on things. so im kinda excused isnt it? haha. chris mentioned that i hardly update, so i shall update just to prove him wrong :)

life had been kinda mundane. inertia filled life again. i hate these feelings of lethargy and sianness. but im getting more and more prone to it. it feels like an endless slippery slope unless i decide to change direction and head upwards.

speaking of slippery slope, i had an inspiration (i dont really like to use revelation in this case cos i tend to associate it more with godly epiphanies) about how it really is like. when people say/think they are going down a slippery slope, i doubt they really think much about it. they probably thought they are in control in the beginning and think they could hopefully reach the bottom safely and still upright. but the amazing thing about slippery slopes is that, it is SLIPPERY. so somehow, you’ll lose control of your steadiness and just tumble down at an exponential rate.

and i do think i am on such a slippery slope where i am about to officially lose control of my life soon. unless of course, i reiterate, i decide to change direction.

i have a lot of things on my mind now. there is my nonexistent spiritual life complicated by being torn between my spirit and flesh. and then there is studying for my graduate school. and of course, my absolute lack of references for these applications.

after writing that, i realized how self-centered i am. maybe i should get out and give back to the society. i should. stupid selfish michelle. rah.