interdependent

this is the first time in my life that im questioning myself. ive never seen myself as someone with inferiority complex until now. and i guess it’s that very same inferiority complex that has blinded me from the fact.

ive always come across as a hard core and insistent person. and i guess i kept reinforcing that same image so that im distinct.

im really afraid of failing and doing anything stupid that will make me look silly. thats probably why i always dont try. thats probably why i always have no funny story to share about myself.

i always live by the mantle of not troubling others if i can. thats why im always afraid to ask. unless theres someone around who’s even more afraid than me. then my pride overcomes me more than the fear of troubling others.

im very awkward about how friendships and relationships are to be. i wonder if im abrupt sometimes. or if everyone does it the same way.