interdependent

i should be getting ready for school now but everyone knows my attitude towards school anyway. i came across this article about miss california mentioning that she is personally against gay marriage and lots of people, including her “best friend”, have backlashed her about that comment.

i had a similar conversation with a bunch of friends just a while back. some of us were firmly against it and i was pretty unconcerned about it cos its pretty much none of my business. so you could say im pretty apathetic towards this issue. but what really irked me about what happened to this miss california was that she wasnt even allowed an opinion of her own. 

While all of the state pageant directors were quick to greet their beauty queens after the live telecast, Moakler and Lewis did not go backstage, nor did they call Prejean to congratulate her on being first runner-up for Miss USA, after Prejean told a national TV audience that she was personally opposed to gay marriage

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“Hollywood isn’t just liberal, it is fearfully liberal. It is easier in Hollywood to say you’re a drug addict or to pretty much anything than to admit to being a committed Christian,” media expert and longtime Hollywood publicist, Michael Levine of Levine Communications, told FOXnews.com.

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But according to Equality California, a statewide advocacy group dedicated to winning equal rights for lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people, Prejean’s views on gay marriage don’t fit with those of her generation.

“It is unfortunate that Miss California, who we note did not win, is so out of touch with the overwhelming majority of people her age that she wants to deny loving, committed couples the rights and dignity that come only with marriage,” said Geoff Kors, Executive Director of Equality California.

i would say its really brave of miss california to speak her stand. a smart, albeit less convicted, person will simply go with the flow and say that shes in favor of gay marriages. but this miss california is different. she has the guts and i salute her for it.

i just believe that in this world, everyone should be entitled to their own opinion. dont cut anyone down simply because they think and believe differently from you. its awfully difficult though, especially for people like me.

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,517277,00.html

i don’t know why but i only blog when im feeling crappy. that’s why my blog always seems so emo. i guess when im happy i just like to share my joy with others in person.

i cant figure if it’s a good thing or bad thing to write down the sad parts of your life. the pros is that it’ll help you vent and somewhat get off your chest. cons is that you simply might feel emo again when you read them again. maybe it’ll be good to write it out, burn it and then drink it down. may those feelings and thoughts thus rest in peace forever.

i don’t even know if i should write it down or should i just let it be part of my memory. such that there’s always only proof from what i told people and not what i jotted down. and when my memory finally fades someday, i forget all those thoughts too.

maybe i should just let it live in some recess of my brain forever.

Aravis also had many quarrels (and, I’m afraid, even fights) with Cor, but they always made it up again: so that many years later, when they were grown up, they were so used to quarrelling and making it up again that they got married so as to go on doing it more conveniently.
-The Horse and his Boy, CS Lewis-

this is the first time in my life that im questioning myself. ive never seen myself as someone with inferiority complex until now. and i guess it’s that very same inferiority complex that has blinded me from the fact.

ive always come across as a hard core and insistent person. and i guess i kept reinforcing that same image so that im distinct.

im really afraid of failing and doing anything stupid that will make me look silly. thats probably why i always dont try. thats probably why i always have no funny story to share about myself.

i always live by the mantle of not troubling others if i can. thats why im always afraid to ask. unless theres someone around who’s even more afraid than me. then my pride overcomes me more than the fear of troubling others.

im very awkward about how friendships and relationships are to be. i wonder if im abrupt sometimes. or if everyone does it the same way.

life is san diego has been peaceful. nothing too exciting that i can boast about. it’s all just been good and peaceful.

things i’ve learned thus far:

1. i can actually cook

2. my social skills are so unpredictable

3. i actually do get home sick

4. i care more about appearances than i thought i do

5. i actually prefer challenging classes to overly slack ones

i just moved into my apartment and i absolutely love it! it’s wayyyy better than i expected it to be (especially after staying at eyal’s place) and my roommates are such sweet and fun people. ive yet to take pictures with them (i looked like a disaster after not having good sleep for so long) but here’s some pictures of my house :D

 and so here’s my room! see all the mess on the table? i was too tired to clear them last night. hahas.

and here’s the other side of the room, where my roomie’s bed is. she’s seriously neat as compared to me. hahas

here is anna and sherianne’s room, which is awfully neat too. sherianne’s boyfriend built her that loft bed (which is actually too high up and i heard she knocks her head against the ceiling quite abit).

and then here’s our kitchen. it’s so clean and nice and well stocked up. hahas

our dining area as seen from the kitchen. looks darn nice right?

i didnt take photo of the living room cos the sun is all bright and stuff and doesn’t turn out that well. hahas. and here’s the lil kitty that we might be adopting if the stamp of approval is given.

 creamy! dont be jealous!

i know this is a way overdue post. but as everyone says, it’s better late than never :P i’m now camping overnight in jfk while waiting for my flight in 6 hours. it’s one of those “save money so we can spend more” schemes we devised. hahas.

i’ll try my best to recount most of the stuff that i’ve gone through in the past many many days. unfortunately most of my photos are with jianlun so i can only wait for him to upload before i add more photos to this non-photo blog.

day 1 was a crazy day for us as we really raced against fatigue, weight and time to get down to san diego. imagine 4 asian girls juggling with 10 luggages on public transport. it was pure madness. thanks to various people i met along the way, including the awesome anna, i managed to make it to my flight out to new york.

and so after more than 25 hours of travelling by plane, bus and train, i’ve finally arrived in the big apple. some in the group were so exhausted that they refused to go out. but jianlun, amanda and i (thereafter called the MIGHTY TRIO) insisted on going out and exploring the city. we went into various shops, took random photos and had our first pizza from a really friendly and nice atmosphere pizzeria. and it was crazy yummy too. the next day, we went down to woodbury common premium outlets where we did some crazy shopping. i got a pair of (kids) suede boots for just US$20! everything was just so enticing there. 

then the highlight of the trip was on 31st dec. that was in fact the whole reason why we were even in new york – TIMES SQUARE BALL DROP COUNTDOWN. we woke up to snow fluttering down. and though we were really excited to see snow for the first time, we were really worried about the weather too. and it certainly didnt help that the papers were screaming “ARTIC TEMPERATURES”. but we decided heck it. we have to do it. and we did! but gosh it was crazy. we met and “hung out” with random people in the crowd, particularly with a group of brazillians and another group from new jersey. the most notable was an ABC called mike who was constantly clowning around (or as amanda put it, being attention attracting) yet was really nice to offer a seat (he brought a foldable chair) and heat packs to anyone who needs them. and so we spent the last 7 hours of 2008 in -10 celcius to attempt to catch the Ball Drop (which actually none of us managed to witness because we were too busy celebrating the end of our torture). it’s certainly something you have to at least do once in your life. actually it’s something you should only do once in your life.

the rest of the new york trip was just filled with visits to various sites such as the American Natural History Museum and catching a Broadway show (we did Mary Poppins, which i fell asleep throughout).

next up we headed over to boston, which was much quieter in comparison to new york. on the first day we arrived, we went down to the waterfront, where we trekked for a really long time through the chilly wind to get to a really famous restaurant called No Name Seafood. even though it was only 530 when we arrived, we were so exhausted that we decided to just eat anyway. and so we feasted on seafood. the Mighty Trio ordered a steamed lobster that came in it’s shell and we had to dissect it on our own! and they served really really good chowder. it was just so amazing.i really hope i can do that again soon. YUMS!

the Mighty Trio also did a self-guided tour of the Freedom Trail of boston, where many of the important sites were pointed out. there was the beautiful State House, the way smaller but really significant old State House, the food-filled Quincy Market and old cobbled-stone streets. we spent quite a lot of time at random spots along the way and didnt managed to catch our final destination at the USS Constitution, which is the oldest commissioned vessel afloat in the world (i think they purposely kept it afloat so that they could earn this title. haha).

we went to harvard the next day and the place was so pretty. i was so tempted to just sneak into someone’s hall to see how it really looked like on the inside. and i bought my teddy bear a harvard shirt to make it smart (it’s freaking not called goondu k?!) that night we ate one of the best burger in boston before heading for a naked comedy show. and gosh were they really naked. you should have seen how shocked amanda and i were at first when they came out with their weiner. the first few guys had really really small penises that we wondered if it was even real (i know it sounds so dumb. but it really seemed too small!). but it was a fun show :P

after boston we went over to philadelphia where we did something none of us ever tried before (i know we did tons of stuff on this trip we’ve never done before but this is seriously THE thing) – COUCHSURFING. if you’ve never heard of it, it’s basically this network where people open up their room to visitors to stay for the night in their place. and we did that with a bunch of really sweet guys (eyal, joey, matt and deep) from drexel university. we met so many new friends there and i went for my first ever hebrew lesson with eyal (and that is motivating me to want to start learning hebrew). the Mighty Trio also rose up to the occasion by cooking sweet and sour chicken (the chicken version of the sweet and sour pork we always eat) for a potluck party we had. and man, it was a blast! this whole couchsurfing thing is seriously darn fun!

we didnt do much visiting in philadelphia cos we were starting to get exhausted. all we saw was the city hall, franklin institute’s chronicles of narnia exhibition and upenn’s archaeology and anthropology museum. and of course chinatown where we ate singaporean-malaysian food for the first time in a long while. that certainly made me miss the food back home. YUMS.

after that we joined mervsters and lingmin, his really smart fellow SMU-UPenn friend, to go to hershey’s and lancaster. we were really luckily to get upgraded on our rented car and we had more space and even a gps. hershey’s wasn’t as exciting as we expected it to be as the theme park was closed for the season (winter season sucks) and the chocolate world was some “romanticized simulated chocolate factory” that was actually an utter disappointment. it’s only saving grace was the two pathetic pieces of chocolate they gave at the end of the ride (im a sucker for free stuff. though not as much as someone i know) and the huge hershey’s store they have. but i have to admit that the hershey’s store was really amazing and i was so tempted to get everything i see. i should have bought the “World’s Biggest Hershey’s Bar” for qg but i didnt :( (im sorry baby… i’ll get something else wayyyy nicer for you k?!)

and since we were really disappointed that we couldnt catch the boston bruins ice hockey match (which was obviously played in boston), we decided to make it up with a hershey’s bears (i know… it’s all too cute right) match, which they unfortunately lost. on a side note, we suspected that we must have jinxed the teams that were playing in cities we were in, e.g. boston bruins, boston celtics and hershey bears all lost their games when they were playing during the time we were in their cities. but then im pretty sure it’s just coincidence. hahas.

oh! and a quick fact for all those of you who condemn me for eating white chocolate because “there isn’t any real chocolate in it”. white chocolate is made from cocoa butter that in turn comes from cocoa beans. so it IS a chocolate. hmph! white chocolate rocks.

after hershey’s, I (take note of the word – it’s “I” cos it was I who…) drove us down to lancaster where everything was disappointingly closed cos it was a sunday. but we managed to catch a glimpse of one Amish family going somewhere in their horse carriage. we also ate some shoo-fly pie (i thought it must be really filthy) which was actually filled with molasses. crazy sweet. the crowning moment of that whole trip, which kind of reversed all the disappointments we had gone through, was the lunch we had at a diner. it was the american diner that one really had to go! the food was tremendous, the portions were humongous and the price was cheap! we really ate till we could eat no more and it was the most satisfying meal i had thus far. after that, we made a killing at the stores and bought so much again. but it’s only because we are set out to improve US economy through spending :D

the night we came back to philadelphia we went to try the famous philadelphia cheesesteaks and it was so not worth the hype. i’ll rather a chicken rice over that any time. but then it’s just my personal taste. someone else will probably adore it.

after philadelphia was new york again, where i spent till im nearly (joanna pay and evangeline pay, please note the word “nearly”) penniless. but then i bought so many nice stuff for me, i, various random people, michelle, and myself :D i know! im so nice right?! hahas.

so thus conclude my hopefully interesting documentation of my US trip thus far. if i’ve the chance, i’ll add in photos to this post to make it wayyy more interesting :D

i know it’s a hyper narcissistic title. even though i occasionally do like to talk all about myself.. but it’s certain a lil queer to be this forth front. but since im really boliao now, i shall be do it in courtesy of edda :)

I LOVE
God
QG
Shiqi – besties for this season. and hopefully a long way to go :)
various other people who make my day by either letting me laugh at them or talk random nonsense to them
mascara that makes your eyelashes sky high
short skirts
nice heels THAT FIT ME! :(
pretty dresses

I DISLIKE
people who act or are genuinely stupid
rude people
food places that serve horrible or mediocre food
mediocrity
my endless cycles of enthusiasms and sianness
people who bully my friends, esp those boyfriends or girlfriends who abuse or manipulate
cursing and swearing
indecisiveness
puke
pants and jeans
bitter gourd, lady’s fingers, eggplant/brinjal/aubergine and other ugly looking vegs
irritating kids who keep crying or whining just to get their way 

I CAN’T WAIT TO
receive lotsa pressies for my birthday
see my bank account recuperate
go to US and play the sem away

I WANT TO
get my spiritual life right
get my whole life right
do something awesome
get into medical school or do a post grad (get your ass off and study more you bummer. HAHA!)
exercise more and be fitter
fly like a bird (paragliding?? :D) 

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO
cycle
blade without falling randomly
ice skate
get creamy to realize his name is creamy and not cookie or “mumm mumm” or “come here!”
convince him that God is really good and faithful
handle failures and rejections 

I HOPE
that i won’t remain screwed up
for an awesome future
i’ll stop the bad habit of procrastination
i’ll have less flabs everywhere
my epilator will hurt less on me 

 I HAVE A PHOBIA FOR
pain
being disliked (yet i always act like i don’t care)
losing everything overnight
my phone falling out of my hand when i stick my hands over ledges and high places
stuff people dirty (nothing seems clean enough)
birds flying at high heights (they look like they’re going to peck me!)
getting scolded

I HAVE A FETISH FOR
nice skinny legs. even on guys
shoes
shiny stuff (ooh. tiffanys and diamonds!)
going to taiwan to shop

I LOVE PEOPLE WHO
think in the same way as me
bitches with me
makes me laugh (first person that comes to mind is rachel teo. hahas)

I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND
crying kids
stupid people who ask me stupid questions (just switch on and use that thing between your ears for a moment)
people who talk big (you forced me to deflate your ego)
people who talk angrily to me

BEFORE I STEP OUT OF THE HOUSE, I HAVE TO
bathe
bring my phone
make sure i know how to get there

I LIKE TO COLLECT
i dont think i really have a collection of anything. i dont really compulsively buy anything.. i think. hahas.

MY MOST EXPENSIVE POSSESSION IS
my macbook. which has probably depreciated in value by 90%.

PEOPLE WHO ENJOY MY COMPANY ARE THOSE WHO
can stand being suan-ed by me
thinks im absolutely gorgeous (HAHAHAHAHA. you know you enjoy my company :D:D)
like heart to heart talk with me
talk a lot
can stand my irritatingness

PEOPLE WHO HATE ME ARE THOSE WHO
can’t stand being insulted by me
i’ve really acted antagonistic towards (i.e. doreen’s best friend)
just dislikes gorgeous and awesome people like me

RIGHT NOW IM THINKING ABOUT
when can i book my tickets to ny already…

TAG
QG
Jingxuan
Amoz
Mel 

ive been having nightmares, both in the night and in the afternoon. and it’s scaring the hell outta me. i dont want it to happen in real life.

doesn’t reading the news make you feel depressed?

the shootings in mumbai. the protests in bangkok. the bombings in iraq. the father raping the daughter in US. the rising unemployment rate all over the world.

i wish i could quote some uplifting biblical verse now. but i cant. because these news discourage me too.

they all just fulfill my basic belief about people – all for oneself.